Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Doctor checkup

I'm working on my computer, but it only runs in safe mode, so my eyes are going crazy from the large fonts. Yuck!

Anyway, I had my checkup today. Overall, good news. I got in a mock argument with the doctor as to if I still had a lump or not. Long story short, he told me I was crazy, and the lump that I feel is in no way a lymph node. We seriously went back and forth a couple times, with me going "Right here! Feel it!" and him saying "Where? Thats not a lymph node." So, I'm going to believe him, he is costing me a ton of money, so he better know what he is talking about. The lump I'm feeling is likely scar tissue or *blush* a tendon. He said he couldn't find a single lymph node on me. So that is good news. WOO HOO!! Means chemo is working. So, the plan is to have another PET scan after I finish my 3rd cycle (Sept 9th), and go from there. If there is no sign of evil on the PET, then I'll switch to radiation. If there is evil, then we'll go a full 6 cycles of chemo. Remember in early Sept to wish for no whammies!!!

Now the bad news. Kyle and I have almost completely decided not to go to Alaska this year. Its not the trip itself thats the problem, I could go on the plane and stuff. Its the fact that we wanted to do all this outdoors stuff, hiking, biking, backpacking, etc. Its questionable if I could do the 1/4 mile hike to exit glacier and back, let alone the 5 miles to the Harding Ice Fields, and the 15 miles Lost Lake Trail is right out. So, if we are going to spend so much money, we don't want to have to cancel everything. I'm really ticked off, but such is life. I'm hoping I can change my tickets to next Sept. I'm also hoping I can tell my sob story to someone and get the change fee waved. We are still hoping to go somewhere, for maybe a long weekend or something. I was thinking we could cruise b/c thats low-key, until the doc said "stay on land in the US." DOH!!! *grumble*

So thats my update today. Must get off this computer before I go blind.


Blogger Naturegrrl said...

oh no! :(
that's the worst news yet.

2:59 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you're a practical, thinking person -- going to Alaska after chemo is not the brightest thing you've ever wanted to do in my mind. The fatigue factor will get you not counting jet lag, etc. especially since you've been through a major illness. I love your doctor--he's the only authority figure you've ever listened intently to according to your dad.

7:48 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know you are disapppointed that you decided not to go to Alaska now. Alaska will be there for you and when you do go it will be all the sweeter. You will be able to reflect upon your illness and realize that you are seeing things from a totally different viewpoint. Everything you see and feel will be so much more intense but yet calming and peaceful. You will have looked the tiger in the eye and not be afraid. Your life will never again be in "safe mode". See ya! hicup

6:39 AM  

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