Thursday, July 01, 2004

Pre-first chemo

I have talked to loads of people who have been through chemo (work folks and online folks), and from what I hear its just like a bad flu. Achy, fevery, and general feeling like poo. But they all say its not that I'll need a full time caretaker or anything. Chemo isn't what it use to be, and the anti-puke meds apparently work wonders. Yeah, I'm probably going to feel like shit. But at this point, I have no idea what side effects I'll get. Yes, I'm nervous. Yes, I'm scared. But right now, everything is unknown. It would be different if I was very sick to begin with, or if I was 80 years old. But I'm 30, and ignoring the obvious, I feel fine, I'm strong, and I have a lovely boyfriend who lives here and is willing to do whatever I need.

I keep telling everyone, when you feel like shit you don't want tons of people around and you don't want to go out and do stuff. I have half of folks trying to convince me to get out of the house, and half telling me they will come over and cater to my every wish. And none of them will take "no" or even "we'll see how I feel after" for an answer. Its really making me want to scream "let ME figure out what I want and stop pressuring me to commit!!" :-) Or that could be the nicotine withdrawl talking. LOL

I know its just everyone's way of showing their support. Please know I do understand that you care. :) And I appriciate it, I really do.

Anyway... I'm scheduled for 1. Should be home by 4. I'll post and update when I get home. Worst case, I'll have Kyle post one.

4 Comments:

Blogger Gypsy said...

Just take care of yourself, take it easy, and do what you want to do when you want to do it. Good luck today, and if you need anything you know where to find me. {hugs}

9:48 AM  
Blogger nycpetit said...

your feelings are completely normal..and likely you are going to be relieved when this first round is over...you'll know firsthand then what to expect....

if nothing else look forward to a weekend of doing just what you want to do

hugs girl
Nat

10:10 AM  
Blogger Naturegrrl said...

I have half of folks trying to convince me to get out of the house, and half telling me they will come over and cater to my every wish. And none of them will take "no" or even "we'll see how I feel after" for an answer. Its really making me want to scream "let ME figure out what I want and stop pressuring me to commit!!"


that's a completely valid thing to think. maybe you should stop answering the phone? :)

11:36 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hope,

Do what is best for you! I am thinking of you! Be strong and selfish. :)

Dawn
Seminole_fan

3:04 PM  

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